The lesson I learned…
Pray to God when you need something.
I would send up desperate pleas.
Asking for precisely what I wanted.
What I needed.
Please, please, please.
Disappointment followed “unanswered” prayers.
Amnesia followed “answered” prayers.
Still, I continued to pray,
begging for what I sought.
Overcoming the lesson…
I still pray to God.
Now I pray every day, not only when I need something.
Now I offer thanks instead of requests.
Now I pray for the sake of others instead of myself.
Now I recognize the beauty in higher purposes, so I am never disappointed.
Now I trust, so there is no more specificity.
Now I have faith, so I accept.
Now I am at peace, so there is no more desperation.
Now, when I appreciate a moment, I look up, give God a big smile, sometimes a head nod of acknowledgment, and always a heartfelt thank you.
Now I am grateful.
Thank you, God.
Until next time…