Rewriting the Code

A Whispers from my Wild Soul Post

Sometimes I find myself trying to dissect the pieces of my healing, asking:

What exactly helped me shift? What was the magic?

And while there were many tools, moments, and catalysts, the truth I keep coming back to is this: healing—real, deep, soul-level healing—has been less about adding things on and more about rewriting what’s already there.

So much of our pain is built on old programming. Beliefs etched into our nervous system, repeated so often they became our truths.

You're not enough.

You're not doing enough.

Be quiet.

Know your place.

Don't ask for too much.

You haven't earned it.

Shrink to fit.

Be a good girl.

Be grateful it’s not worse.

Others know better.

Who do you think you are?

They weren’t always said aloud—but they were felt, modeled, absorbed.

And so, healing became a process of reprogramming.

Not overnight. Not in one wild aha moment. But slowly. Through repetition. Through compassion. Through choosing, again and again, to speak a different truth.

Here’s the science-y soul part:

Your brain is made up of billions of neurons. When we learn something new—or repeat something often—these neurons fire together and create synapses: little pathways of connection. Over time, with enough repetition, these pathways become stronger and more automatic. This is neuroplasticity. It means your brain is capable of change. You’re not stuck. Your wiring isn’t fixed. You can choose new patterns, new thoughts, new truths.

But here’s the part that doesn’t get talked about enough:

If you're constantly taking in the old messaging—you’re canceling out the new.

If you’re trying to reprogram your mind while surrounding yourself with people, content, habits, and environments that echo the very stories you’re trying to unlearn... it’s going to feel like a tug-of-war. And you’ll keep losing to the louder voice.

This means we must be just as intentional about what we delete as we are about what we add.

Sometimes, that’s uncomfortable.

Sometimes, it’s painful.

Sometimes, it’s someone you love.

It might mean walking away from relationships where the old roles still live.

It might mean muting or unfollowing content that drags you back into loops of self-doubt.

It might mean saying no to the joke that pokes fun at someone else.

It might mean leaving a gathering and realizing you slipped back into a version of yourself you swore you’d outgrown.

I know that feeling well.

I walked into a recent family event grounded and strong. I showed up as me. But by the end of the party—just a few hours in—I found myself back in old patterns. Ridiculing. Snarky. Slipping into habits I thought I’d shed.

I left that party feeling icky. Not because I don't love those people.

But because I love myself enough now to notice when I’ve betrayed her, and I did, in that situation.

That’s how sneaky it is. That’s how fast it happens.

The people around us matter.

Their energy matters.

And if they were part of the programming?

Being around them can pull the old code right back online.

So if you're struggling to embody your new truths, ask yourself:

🌀 What (or who) am I still allowing into my field that feeds the old story?

This isn’t about judgment. It’s about discernment.

You don’t need to cut everyone off or go live in the woods alone (unless you want to).

But you do need to protect your reprogramming process like it’s sacred—because it is.

You are building something new inside yourself.

You are whispering a new truth into being.

And every time you:— Play music that lifts you— Read words that affirm your path— Remove what drags you back—Surround yourself with people who see and support your evolution

…you are strengthening the code.

You are choosing your Self.

And she is worth choosing.

Whispers from My Wild Soul

A blog series of soul remembering, healing, and transformation

These are the quiet truths that rise up when we slow down.

Reflections from the threshold of midlife, where the old stories begin to fall away and the wild soul stirs awake.

Here, I write from the heart—about crone wisdom, spiritual awakening, and the rituals that root me to the Earth and to myself.

These whispers are an invitation to return home to your own wise, wild soul.