The lesson I learned…
Take the advice of others even if it contradicts what you want.
I didn’t take control of my life,
which is ironic given how controlling I can be.
But maybe that makes perfect sense.
Maybe being controlling grew out of previous conditions.
I was steered into most things.
I allowed others to direct my big decisions.
I sought the opinions of everyone around me.
I didn’t have the confidence to move forward with my choices.
I let solid reasoning convince me otherwise.
I ignored my crystal-clear picture and proceeded on the path chosen by others.
I don’t regret the path because it brought me to where I am,
but so much of it doesn't feel mine to own.
Overcoming the lesson…
I made big, bold decisions on my own with only my partner in life playing a role.
I didn’t seek advice from the people that undoubtedly could have made it easier for me.
I deliberately kept my plans to myself.
I wanted to do it on my own.
On my terms.
Without the influence of anyone.
With only my energy feeding it. Fueling it.
This was a dream, and it was going to come about the way I wanted it to.
In truth,
It was a little messy.
At times it was frustrating.
Sometimes I wondered if I was crazy.
I questioned whether I would fail.
I wondered if I had what it takes.
But,
That was the point.
I wanted to live the lessons.
Make the mistakes.
Be proud of myself for overcoming it all.
Be able to take full credit for it.
Own the entire thing.
Now I can say,
I chose.
I made the hard choices.
I took control.
I steered the ship.
I made the decisions.
Win or lose; it’s all on me.
I won’t be giving away my decisions anymore.
Until next time…
Michele
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