The lesson I learned…
Your worth is tied to the approval of others.
Years spent needing approval.
Mainly from one
but also, from all.
I fell short time and again.
So much time half committing to my values
because they didn’t mesh.
Only being half of who I really am.
Afraid to be all of who I really am.
For refusal of the approval
that I wasn’t getting anyway.
Overcoming the lesson…
The final showdown for the approval I always wanted.
Hurtful words were spoken.
A sort of rock bottom.
Replaying the worst of those words over and over.
Initially feeling such sadness
but ultimately realizing
that all of it
was bullshit.
They didn’t know everything I had gone through,
everything I did,
everything I gave,
everything I endured,
everything I worked for.
Why would I seek approval from anyone
who doesn’t know my whole story?
Who found it so easy to judge, without knowing.
No more seeking approval from others.
I let it go,
the need for approval.
It is no longer my burden.
I am free.
I am me
100%.
Of which I approve.
And there is nothing better.
Until next time…
Michele