My name is Michele, and I was once a sad, pessimistic, and negative person.
The universe was against me.
If anything could go wrong, it did.
If I had a 50/50 shot at something, I landed on the wrong 50.
I couldn't catch a break. I wasn't one of the lucky people.
I longed for a better life but sometimes felt so comforted by my sadness that I couldn't imagine it any other way.
I accepted my way of being but held out a glimmer of hope that something would come along and change it all.
I just needed something to make it all better.
I thought maybe a perfect relationship, or a dream job, or winning the lottery, or a beautiful home was what I needed to be happy.
I carried on with life as usual but was ever waiting, longing, dreaming of someday when my happiness would finally arrive.
I had no control. I just had to wait. Maybe I wasn't deserving. Maybe I wasn't meant for happiness.
Eventually, I decided to stop waiting and go searching instead.
As a result of my ample research (seriously, lots and lots of research), I learned that I had the power to make myself happy all along. I had the responsibility to make myself happy.
When you are a pessimist and eternally negative, you can always find someone or something else to blame. It means that you are never really in control of your life. Learning that I was responsible and in control gave me my life.
I waited all those years for happiness to arrive, and I had it in me all along. If you doubt that it's within you, I can assure you that it is.
My self-improvement journey is ongoing, as I believe all journeys should be, but today, I like the person I am. I generally feel happy, hopeful, optimistic, grateful, and fully in control. I have cultivated a positive mindset. I see the good in life, not just the bad. I see life as a gift, no longer something that you need to get through.
Full disclosure, the journey hasn't been easy. I had to get real with myself. I had to unlearn many bad habits, bad ways of thinking, bad ways of being, bad coping mechanisms and replace them with good habits, positive ways of thinking, helpful ways of being, and better ways of handling myself.
Whenever you begin a journey of self-discovery and self-improvement, it's going to be uncomfortable but believe me; it's worth it.
I want to share my stories with you, my lessons learned and overcome, in the hopes that you see the possibilities in front of you. You can be whoever you want to be. You don't have to stay in the dark. I am shining a light for you.
I hope to see you again.
Until next time….